I came across a quote the other day that I found very applicable to life. It said, "A roller coaster wouldn't be too much fun if you couldn't get off of it." So often life is just like this. Recently I have felt like my life is constantly up and down. Some days I will find myself higher than ever. I am so content with my walk with Christ, and I feel extremely blessed. Other days I feel down. I still know that I am blessed, I just choose not to think about it. Instead I think of the negative aspects of my life. I know that I can't do this alone and that I need God's word to help heal me. However, on these days it seems I attempt to convince myself that there are other easier ways of healing: people, movies, music, my own strength. And in the end, these things may truly bring happiness to my life. But they will not bring joy. The happiness I receive from spending thirty minutes on pinterest fades as soon as I get off of the website. The Joy I feel from reading God's word for thirty minutes does not fade when I get done. So why is it always so difficult to decide to read my bible instead of waste away time on the internet? Especially when God is yearning for me to spend more time with him.
It seems that every day is a new battle for me when it comes to spending time with my maker. Everyday that I put him off, I am putting something else above him. Then, I wonder why I have so much doubt and worry and trouble and sadness in my life. I thought about one of my favorite verses and that is Matthew 6:34. I opened my bible and turned to that passage, but instead I read the verses 25-34. I noticed something that I have never noticed before about these verses. Verse 33 reads, "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." It goes on into verse 34 that says, "Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
What stuck out to me about this was the part of verse 33 that said SEEK FIRST. I have to put God above everything in my life before I can give him all of my worrying. What I think I am trying to get at is this... If I want to feel the joy that God is offering me, I need to take time and persistently communicate with him. He must come first in my life. That is when I will receive the peace and joy that he is begging me to take.
